National Eating Disorders Awareness Week 2020

Vulnerability Post: Part 2 ✨

In honor of National Eating Disorders Awareness Week 2020, I decided to get extra real and tell you about my day today. To anyone who doesn’t know, I have struggled on and off with an eating disorder for over 10 years with a couple of stays at a treatment center in South Florida. I am so grateful for the tools and support I’ve received throughout my years of recovery, particularly recently with all of my health challenges. ED never goes away, but he no longer controls every decision I make. I am able to provide my body with the vital nutrients it needs to heal without the obsessing, counting, weighing, comparing. I don’t miss those days for a second. My body has been on the wildest roller coaster over the last year or so— diet changes, hormone changes, activity level changes, medication changes. And through all of that, my body has changed. Imagine that ✨But for someone with a history of an eating disorder, this can be really really hard. I haven’t owned a scale in years, but I’ve been noticing my clothes getting tighter, legs looking different and then it was finally confirmed when I went to the doctor today. I’ve gained quite a bit of weight (for me at least). I could let this get to me. I could spiral. Easily. But I honestly don’t have energy for that right now. Radical Acceptance. That phrase just keeps popping up for me. I have to radically accept that my body is living, growing, changing every single day and I can’t expect it to always look the same. All I can do is focus on fueling my body with nutritious food, positive thoughts, movement, and love and the rest will work itself out ✨ So after my doctors appointment today, I went to the mall to exchange a pair of leggings for the next size up. Bite the bullet. Face the beast. Unfortunately they didn’t have the right leggings in stock, so instead I got some neon pajama shorts and this rainbow scrunchie 🌈 I think I’ll call that a win! Happy NEDA Week, Babes. You’re not alone ✨

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