End of Week Check-In:

Ooof. Whatta week. I imagine most of us are still trying to process and digest everything that has unfolded in the last 7 days. Schools shutting down. Millions trying to figure out how to work from home. Possibly even more flat out don’t have a job anymore. Others are sick. Many are afraid. Hell, I’m afraid. But I am also very very grateful. Grateful to be on leave from my job at the hospital; physically and emotionally “distancing” myself from the front lines. Grateful that I have a safe and warm home to be quarantined in for the foreseeable future. Grateful, in an odd way, that I have already been used to this kind of life for awhile now. Between pain, fatigue, anxiety, overall sickness— I’ve been keeping to myself for awhile. But my heart still aches. It aches for millions of people around the world that have had the rug pulled out from under them and nothing about their day seems normal right now. I have to believe that we will all get through this and something beautiful will come about because of it. I have to believe it. Through my endless instagram scrolling today, I found a prompt about an “End of Week Check-In” by NEDA (National Eating Disorder Association). I thought it would be a nice exercise and I encourage you to check-in with yourself, even if just in your head. But there is something to seeing your thoughts put to words… just sayin. I Feel- I feel supported. I feel safe. That no matter what happens, I and the people I love will have each other and we will get through it. I Need- I need to figure out how to take a bath without completely overheating for hours. Haha! Anyone else? No?….oh.

I Forgive- I forgive my previous GYN for not knowing how to manage my care. I’m a tricky one. I forgive all the time that went by before I finally got a diagnosis. Because I’m here and things are happening the way they are meant to.

I Celebrate- I celebrate finally getting that diagnosis. As I mentioned before….it really doesn’t mean anything, but it also means everything.

I Release- I release the heaviness of the past and the worry of the future because all I have and all I can control is the now.

I Trust- I trust that things won’t always be this hard.

Be Well, Babes -B P.S. Rediscovered Rising Appalachia and they have kept me floating through the day all day today. Spotify these beautiful sisters!